Fear and Anticipation

Another dual list: fears and anticipations...

I fear:
that I'll never be 100% after the last disappointment
ending up alone
putting bad writing out in the world
losing loved ones
death
mediocrity
being rejected
spending years away from home
not getting into grad school
living alone

Anticipations:
next Christmas with the family
my publishing contract
seeing my first book on the shelves
seeing Europe
meeting and living with "the one"
having my own home
setting my parents up for the rest of their lives
making a living as a writer and not having to work another 9 to 5
the next Anne Rice novel
the next Ana Menendez novel
my next good greasy cheeseburger

The anticipations were a lot more fun... :)