Growing Up?

When I think about all that can happen in a short time, it scares me. In six months, I've ended an almost three year relationship, graduated from UT, moved to California, met and lost the love of my life, and started the process to enroll for my teaching certificate. And I still have over two years here in California. I can't even begin to imagine all that will happen in that time.

For now, I'm just trying to get through the days, recover from what's happened in just these two and a half months since we got here. I hate to sound dramatic; I know some people would scoff at the idea of the end of a relationship being "something to recover from." I don't know what I would say to those people. Not much I could say to them, I suppose.

I feel like I'm finally growing up at 27. It took moving away from home and dealing with another loss to make me realize a lot of things. And it's not always a pleasant experience.

Before I forget, I have to say thank you to Vanessa for a wonderful, thoughtful post that hit home this morning (Friday, September 30). Everyone could get something out of reading it.

Anyhow, this growing up business isn't all it's cracked up to be... Leaving behind old ways is never easy, especially for me, who's so attached to them. Here's hoping I manage to keep my sanity in the meantime.

Keep your heads up, everyone, and look to what makes you happy.

--Joseph