Trying to Step Forward
Since being jarred by the very unexpected end of yet another relationship (that's four in four years now), I've made some developments.
In the midst of all the reevaluating I've been doing, I've decided to get a teaching certification. I was an education major once upon a time. I've done plenty of work with kids. I used to work in an afterschool program and last year worked as a mentor and tutor. The desire to teach has always been there, but I've been fighting it for years. Why? Well, teachers have to put up with a lot to do what they do, and I didn't want to deal with all that. But, working this administrative job, I realized I could either make a decent paycheck and be unsatisfied every day or I could go for what I know will make me happy. So... here goes a big career step. Can't say career change because I knew to begin with that this wasn't a career; it's a paycheck. Meanwhile, I'll keep writing and working toward publication.
Also, I'm going to start seeing a therapist. A therapist, of all things. I come from a very no-nonsense family. To us, a therapist is someone characters in Lifetime movies see. But I've finally given in there, too. It's time for me to figure out some things about myself and try to change them for the better. I have an appointment set for tomorrow and don't have the first idea what to expect. Here's hoping...
I've also decided to remain single for a good while. Just saying that scares me senseless. I'm not the single type, by any means. Thus, my relationship-hopping. But I know in my head that I need to untangle myself, and that means standing on my own for a while. I've had a friend tell me that I can't count myself out in the dating department, that you never know what may happen. I'll give him that, but I just don't have the energy at this point. And, as much as I love having another person in my life, I'm afraid of running down the same path again. So, we'll see how well I do sticking to that.
Other than that, day by day. Trying to appreciate what I have in front of me.
I hope everyone is doing well and is able to accept whatever comes their way with grace.
--Joseph
In the midst of all the reevaluating I've been doing, I've decided to get a teaching certification. I was an education major once upon a time. I've done plenty of work with kids. I used to work in an afterschool program and last year worked as a mentor and tutor. The desire to teach has always been there, but I've been fighting it for years. Why? Well, teachers have to put up with a lot to do what they do, and I didn't want to deal with all that. But, working this administrative job, I realized I could either make a decent paycheck and be unsatisfied every day or I could go for what I know will make me happy. So... here goes a big career step. Can't say career change because I knew to begin with that this wasn't a career; it's a paycheck. Meanwhile, I'll keep writing and working toward publication.
Also, I'm going to start seeing a therapist. A therapist, of all things. I come from a very no-nonsense family. To us, a therapist is someone characters in Lifetime movies see. But I've finally given in there, too. It's time for me to figure out some things about myself and try to change them for the better. I have an appointment set for tomorrow and don't have the first idea what to expect. Here's hoping...
I've also decided to remain single for a good while. Just saying that scares me senseless. I'm not the single type, by any means. Thus, my relationship-hopping. But I know in my head that I need to untangle myself, and that means standing on my own for a while. I've had a friend tell me that I can't count myself out in the dating department, that you never know what may happen. I'll give him that, but I just don't have the energy at this point. And, as much as I love having another person in my life, I'm afraid of running down the same path again. So, we'll see how well I do sticking to that.
Other than that, day by day. Trying to appreciate what I have in front of me.
I hope everyone is doing well and is able to accept whatever comes their way with grace.
--Joseph
posted by Joseph at 1:07 PM
2 Comments:
Making a decision like going back to school is a big step. Congrats and I hope you succeed at your writing!
Congratulations on the steps you're taking. Change can be a good thing sometimes. It's good to know that there are still people brave enough to be teachers and writers out there.
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