Thoughts on Returning to California

I return to California tomorrow. Most vacations go by quickly. These last two weeks have been some of my fullest and longest in a while. From riding the subway around Manhattan to recovering from hangover last Thursday to getting to know someone new over the last week to making new friends, I'm exhausted!

It's strange sidestepping your normal life for a while, getting out of the grind and stepping into a new routine. It's easy to almost forget what happened before. But I know when I get back to San Diego, it'll almost be like I never left. It's always like that. I'm still figuring out what San Diego has meant. I'm going to be processing "the California years" for a while. Hell, these last two weeks will take some digesting.

Thoughts on returning:

I'll miss the City
I'll miss the fall sunlight in Delaware
I'll miss him
looking forward to seeing my niece
same for my sister
have to look for a job ASAP
I have a long few months ahead of me
I'm excited and terrifed about moving to NY in a few months
readjusting to the 3 hour time change will suck
I'm glad some chapters are closing
I hope others open soon
this trip should give plenty of writing material once it's filtered through
I'm more ready for love now than I was just a few weeks ago
I'm ready to smile again and take on life
I hope he finds room in his wounded heart for me

It hasn't been a perfect trip, Lord knows. But it's been a good one. It was nothing of what I expected. But it was what I needed. Who woulda thunk? Thank you to all the people who made this trip wonderful. I'm never forgetting this one. And it's not quite over yet...

J