Homecoming
So I'm moving back home Tuesday. My California days are nearly over. No offense to the great friends I've made here, but there will be no love lost between me and California. We never clicked. San Diego's great. It has beautiful weather and a fair amount of stuff to do, but it's not for me. Never has been.
Anyone who knows me knows how much I've missed Austin since I left. Although I'm not nearly as homesick as I was when I first got here, I still think about home all the time. Besides, it's been a hell of a year-and-then-some out here. I'm ready to get back and recuperate in Austin.
I still plan to be in New York in early '07. This is just a detour on the way. I'll be back with my parents, socking away as much cash as I can for the big move. New York still calls. Who am I to deny her?
I must say, California hasn't been all doom and gloom. I will miss my friends more than they know. I have met some of my closest friends in just the last year. And Lord knows I wouldn't have made it through the year without them. But this return home was inevitable. I've felt for a while that this chapter is ready to end. I'm tired of being the brother-in-law in the extra room. Tired of being an extra in other people's lives. I'm almost thirty. It's past time for me to get things rolling for myself.
Seems years ago that we pulled into San Diego, and I was waiting so eagerly to see him. Wow... So much has happened since then, no wonder I'm so tired now. And no wonder these white hairs are growing in all over my head. But everything has served its purpose. I'm not going back to Austin the same person I was, and I'm glad. I'm more sure of myself now and more ready for what comes next. I'm still anxious about change, but better suited to deal with it.
I still plan to maintain the blog. In a way, it's served its purpose, too. I started it to record my time in California. But I want it to be more than that now. California's such a small part of my path to wherever the hell I'm supposed to be. There are so many stories to come. I hope to be able to share them.
J
Anyone who knows me knows how much I've missed Austin since I left. Although I'm not nearly as homesick as I was when I first got here, I still think about home all the time. Besides, it's been a hell of a year-and-then-some out here. I'm ready to get back and recuperate in Austin.
I still plan to be in New York in early '07. This is just a detour on the way. I'll be back with my parents, socking away as much cash as I can for the big move. New York still calls. Who am I to deny her?
I must say, California hasn't been all doom and gloom. I will miss my friends more than they know. I have met some of my closest friends in just the last year. And Lord knows I wouldn't have made it through the year without them. But this return home was inevitable. I've felt for a while that this chapter is ready to end. I'm tired of being the brother-in-law in the extra room. Tired of being an extra in other people's lives. I'm almost thirty. It's past time for me to get things rolling for myself.
Seems years ago that we pulled into San Diego, and I was waiting so eagerly to see him. Wow... So much has happened since then, no wonder I'm so tired now. And no wonder these white hairs are growing in all over my head. But everything has served its purpose. I'm not going back to Austin the same person I was, and I'm glad. I'm more sure of myself now and more ready for what comes next. I'm still anxious about change, but better suited to deal with it.
I still plan to maintain the blog. In a way, it's served its purpose, too. I started it to record my time in California. But I want it to be more than that now. California's such a small part of my path to wherever the hell I'm supposed to be. There are so many stories to come. I hope to be able to share them.
J
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